A Piece of Clay

The male ego is a delicate thing. You have to know how to mold and caress your words to smooth over a major issue. I am taking suggestions on how to do that when it comes to sex and a sensitive relationship.

When I first met this person I was taken back by everything! I was in awe of the person he is, overcome by my immediate emotional attachment, and excited about the promise of amazing sex when I felt the chemistry like a lightning bolt after our first kiss.

Cut to three sex scenes later......

I find myself in bed listening to his compliments and wondering what the hell he just experienced?

It's like he is either:
A. Is/was a virgin?
B. A closet gay
C. Clueless as he has only been with one woman in college

I have never been so confused by a man's actions or lack there of in bed? When he wants to have sex, he just says so indirectly? The second time it was almost like he was too shy to even say the word "sex". The third time was the first time he actually initiated it by sort of touching me first. I am used to men basically tackling me and touching every square inch of my body when they are in the mood. This suitor was more aggressive about it when we initially rolled around like teenagers, in a PG way before he stayed over?

I have started testing the boundaries, which has only led to more confusion. For instance, I asked him what his favorite sex positions are. I can answer that question in .2 seconds, as can most people. He looked at me and rattled off something about the position not really mattering it is more the moment. Before we fell asleep I told him he had to "fuck me in the morning". He smiled and held me closer as we both drifted off into our own dreams. When I woke up, he was all smiles and held me without one sexual caress. The condom is still on my night stand! As he was gathering his things to leave, I stood on my bed completely naked. His eyes did not move from mine. He didn't even do a quick once over?? He just kept his eyes on mine and gave me a long hug and quick kiss goodbye? Is he being sweet and respectful or is he asexual and scared?

I know he has A LOT going on and most guys get stuck in the tunnel vision blinders, but is that it? Can he be the perfect man, with no game? Can something like this be fixed? Is it possible he just needs the right woman to mold and shape his sex skills? All I know is that I am getting frustrated fast with this one.

*Aries*

I feel like a dog chasing it's tail. The poor, maybe idiotic pooch spins in circles until it is either bored or exhausted. This twisted circle is now the best analogy for my dating life?

I have been running in circles all over the city with 3 impossibly different suitors. The only problem now is I am either becoming exhausted or bored by all three! What's a girl to do.......

*Aries*

Movie Night, Manhattan Style

Last night, Aries and I met for a movie. We had 8pm reservations at The Crosby Hotel for the film True Grit. Prior to the film, we were treated to a specialty cocktail and appetizers in their lounge.
Over drinks, Aries and I caught up on our lives. I'm happily ensconced in couplehood; she's dating her way through Manhattan. It's so fun to trade stories now that our lives are so different.
At 8, we leisurely made our way downstairs to the private film room. We settled into the squishy chairs and enjoyed a preview and ad free film. It was so nice, so dignified, so anti-stress. Most of the time, movie-going in Manhattan is rife with a veritable panoply of people and popcorn. This was wonderful, peaceful, easy.

I highly recommend, and I'm not the only one!

*scorpio*

They Like Me, They Really Like Me!

Guess Where I Am

Hint, it's my future.

Yup, after I shook off the stench of vodka, I dragged my beleagured body up-uptown to Admitted Students Weekend. I sat in on lectures from esteemed faculty, met my future classmates, drank some wine, did a campus tour, and found out I was one of the few to be awarded a merit-based scholarship (woot!). Suffice it to say, it was super fun and very informative.


Turns out I'm right on top of everything - I already have my classes picked out, my ID made and my medical history cleared. And I found out they have sick spin classes at the FREE four story gym on campus.

I'm going to Looooove it here!

*scorpio*

Mister H & Miss Absolut

Last night, I finally dragged my ass out for a night of good old fashioned club hopping. It had been so long since I'd had a wild night, I just felt the need bubbling up in me. I met my dear friend the Absolut rep for dinner at La Esquina. We were joined by some of her tall, blonde Swedish friends, which is always a treat. Afterwards we combed the city, club hopping at Avenue, 1 Oak, Goldbar, Mister H and a few others (forgive me, the vodka kicked in!) It was such a massive night.

We flirted with bartenders, made appearances at various birthday bashes, and lied to silly boys after one particularly insistent man refused to believe I lived in New York. After that, I went with Sweden:)

I forgot how fun it can be to just flirt and tell little lies and be silly. It was so restorative... except for the fact that we shut the place down at 4 am.

I finally got home around 4:30, and wincing, set my alarm for 6:30 AM. Hey, I'm addicted to my spin class!

Of course, as is my habit whenever I go out with Miss Absolut, I slept right through my blaring alarm and barely made it in time for Admitted Students Weekend at Columbia University! EEK.

So worth it, though.

*scorpio*

Leather & Snakeskin

Gah! My leather pants just arrived! I'm super thrilled, they're amazing. I feel like a total badass in them.

They'll be perfect for Europe this summe- wait, who am I kidding? It's going to be 100 degrees! They'll be perfect for class next yea- wait, who am I kidding? It's not going to be easy to make new friends when I'm rocking the most intimidating pants (with snakeskin lace-up heels, natch).

So they're not the most practical purchase. I still say Leather is Forever.

xoxo
*scorpio*